Wednesday, April 15, 2009
The Biggest Bubble in the World Just Burst
From the Wife:
Trying to hold back the anger is getting tuffer for me because it's not right that Marco has to fight this shit over and over again. All the damn battle scares he has now are not enough.
"GOD" what the f*#% was he/she thinking (if he/she does exsist) to put this whole "CANCER" shit out there and for what purpose. Makes no damn sense to me.
Well let me back off this "GOD" shit already.
One day after you get good news, you think, that their may be ,not so good news lingering some where, you cross your fingers not to hear the not to good news. Especially when you have two appointments one day after another.
Then when you do get the not so good news you just want to yell to the top of you lungs.
I wish I could record myself screaming this from the top of a freakin mountains!
I swear, I hate everything about this whole freakin diesease. I hate that it lurks as if in swap water and emerges like an alligator ambushing it's prey at the edge of the water hole.
You would think that with the good news of the tumor shrinking was good to last us awhile and we would hear the words you can have the robotic surgery with minimal recovery time.
I believe that is what is to be expected after hearing you can go to surgery now let's see when the surgeon wants to do the surgery. But appointment number two was no were near anything of good news, far from it.
Instead you come out saying WHAT THE HELL and YOUR FREAKIN KIDDING ME!
We have to wait till Friday morning to find out what the plan is to remove the freakin tumor. Dr. Granis wanted the Sarcoma Confrence Team on Thursday 4/16/09 to talk about what options they can come up with to remove this tumor.
Basically all of Marco's physician's will be called in to this confrence and bring his case to the Sarcoma Confrence Team table to discuss the better outcome for Marco without the major surgery.
Because if this tumor is not removed and it starts to react again it can kill him. Me lleva la chingada is what I was thinking.
Top three topics they are bringing to the table are as follows:
1. Chemo would continue to try to shrink it more if possible. With their power punch cocktail.
(Marco says " he is not looking forward to chemo again)
2. Radiation to the site where the tumor is at. To see if it could be shrunk in a different way.
3. Major Surgery having a huge cut from the back side to the side where the tumor is at,have four ribs and some of his chest wall removed and having the tumor with all cancer boarders removed around the area. Marco would be in pain with some recovery time.
So it comes down to the position of the tumor and what needs to be done so that Marco has less pain and try to avoid the major surgery to remove the tumor.
NO ONE PERSON IN THE WORLD SHOULD BE DEALT THE CANCER CARD IT'S F*$%@* UP...... IS WHAT IT IS.
After reading some of the blog's on Sarcoma Alliance I sensed that people must feel some relief to express themselves ...... so I did.
Cancer War continues.......funny that yesterday we were walking through the halls at City of Hope when Marco pointed out a picture a child had drawn called Cancer War and Marco thought it was funny cause it had the Star Wars drawing ......but that is what it is as Marco says......a freakin cancer war in the body.
I will keep you posted.... I will not apologize for any of the above.....just to make sure we are all the same page we are no where near the end of this road yet. This blog is to express yourself right. So do it!
Posted by Moshura's Sister at 7:40 PM